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Lyrics
Field of Innocence
By Evanescence

I still remember the world
From the eyes of a child
Slowly those feelings
Were clouded by what I know now

Where has my heart gone?
An uneven trade for the real world
Oh, I...I want to go back to
Believing in everything and knowing nothing at all

I still remember the sun
Always warm on my back
Somehow it seems colder now

Where has my heart gone?
Trapped in the eyes of a stranger
Oh, I...I want to go back to
Believing in everything

Iesu, Rex admirabilis
Et triumphator nobilis
Dulcedo ineffabilis
Totus desiderabilis


Where has my heart gone?
An uneven trade for the real world
Oh, I...I want to go back to
Believing in everything

Oh, where...where has my heart gone?
Trapped in the eyes of a stranger
Oh, I...I want to go back to
Believing in everything

I still remember...


Credits
This layout was, for the most part, made by xenodevil and coded by d3athw1sh at oni_graphics. I just did some tweaking (the biggest difference being the header picture). I hope I didn't make it look too crappy. ~_~

Mindless consumerism at its finest [November 27th, 2009|09:39pm]
[ mood | tired ]
[ music | Some home improvement show on TV ]

I survived Black Friday. I got home several hours ago, but I've only now got up the energy to post about it. I woke up at 3:00, got to work at 4:30, and clocked in at 4:45. They opened the doors at 5:00, and then after that it was pretty much all a blur. I finished an eight-hour shift (eight and a half hours, if you count lunch) at 1:15. I can't believe I worked an eight-hour shift and was done that early in the day. It didn't feel like eight hours, either. It went by so fast, but then again, I was so freaking busy that I had no concept of time passing. It may have seemed to go by quickly, but I was still exhausted by the time I was able to leave. My throat was sore from talking shouting at guests all day (to be heard over the racket, not to be mean), and I wanted a treat for working like I did, so I got my mom and myself some ice cream at Food Avenue.

The line that formed in front of the store before opening was jaw-dropping. It started at the entrance doors (duh), went all the way along the front of the store (and you know how big Target stores are), turned 90 degrees and stretched down the last row of parking spaces all the way to the Target sign at the far corner of the parking lot, went around the sign and continued on down the sidewalk. I heard another team member saying that it was the longest Black Friday line she's seen in her six years working at Target. This is a two-edged sword: Good for our bottom line, bad for the sanity of our team members. When they unlocked the doors--to the cheers of the shoppers waiting outside--I swear the line was coming in steadily for twenty minutes or more. At one point, I looked down the front runway (what we call the main store aisles) toward the electronics department, and it was just solid people all the way down. I was surprised anyone could move in that mob.

At its longest, the line for the cash registers went down the runway leading from the front of the store to the fitting rooms in the back corner, went all the way past the men's department and into toys and sporting goods, and then doubled back on itself so there were people on either side of the runway between chemicals/home storage/pets and toys/sporting goods. That's just insane.

I'm glad I was behind one of the cash registers. I don't know if I would have survived if I was working out on the floor. _-_

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Daily German & French: November 16th - November 21st [November 22nd, 2009|10:00pm]
[ mood | merf... ]
[ music | The fridge making noise ]

Daily German )

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Forgotten English: November 16th - November 21st [November 22nd, 2009|09:13pm]
[ mood | okay ]
[ music | Absolutely nothing ]

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A catalogue of dumbassery [November 18th, 2009|02:25am]
[ mood | sleepy ]
[ music | FFIX music in my head ]

Okay. I have a lot of annoyances in my job on a daily basis. Some days are worse than others. Since the Christmas season is coming up, I'm positive I'll be getting annoyed at work a lot more often than usual in the coming weeks. As a form of preemptive catharsis, I thought I'd list the things I dislike the most or that happen the most often. Not that I dislike my job (I don't), but there are several things about it that get on my nerves, not to mention bruise my already battered opinion of human intelligence.

Some of these are only minor annoyances, while some of them fucking piss me off. The order they're listed in has nothing to do with their level of annoyance. I'm just listing them as they come to me.

If anyone reading this is guilty of one or more of these things, note that I don't mean any personal offense. But keep in mind I still think you're an idiot for committing these crimes against common sense.

In no particular order... )

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Daily German & French: November 9th - November 14th [November 15th, 2009|01:45pm]
[ mood | lazy ]
[ music | Rain outside my window ]

Daily German )

Daily French )

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Forgotten English: November 9th - November 14th [November 15th, 2009|12:28pm]
[ mood | hungry ]
[ music | Mom making pizza in the kitchen ]

Monday )

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WALL OF PEOPLE [November 13th, 2009|02:15am]
[ mood | anxious ]
[ music | The occasional car driving by ]

I'm going to have to be at work at 4:45 in the morning the day after Thanksgiving. Instead of the service desk, I'm going to be cashiering. I've never been anywhere near a store during the door-buster sales on Black Friday. Last year, I had a mid-shift--which is the best possible shift on Black Friday, 'cause you neither open nor close--and the year before that I had a closing shift, so I wasn't around for the madness and mayhem of the morning. I similarly lucked out in my Black Friday schedules in past retail jobs, too. In summary, two weeks from today is going to be a brand new (and likely traumatizing) experience for me.

The good news is I'll be getting off at 1:15, and I won't have to be back at work until 4:00 the next afternoon. I'll have plenty of time to rest up before the crazy-busy four weeks that are the Christmas season.

This'll be my fifth Christmas season working in retail. One Christmas I was at Suncoast Video, one I was at K-B Toys, and this'll be my third at Target. I figure if I've survived it four times before--including one time in a fucking toy store--I should do so again. At least I hope so.

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Daily German & French: November 2nd - November 7th [November 8th, 2009|01:19pm]
[ mood | okay ]
[ music | World's Dumbest on truTV ]

Daily German )

Daily French )

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Forgotten English: November 2nd - November 7th [November 8th, 2009|12:01pm]
[ mood | listless ]
[ music | Nuttin' ]

Monday )

Tuesday )

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Thursday )

Friday )

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Is that a dragon on Terra's crystal? O_o [November 8th, 2009|02:38am]
[ mood | sleepy ]
[ music | Almost total silence ]

Played through Terra's story. Y'know, for someone who's so timid and hates fighting, she's quite the little warrioress. She may look like a defenseless waif, but she can be a real bitch in battle. And she has a LOOOOOT of hair in esper form. Wow.

Kefka's so fucking awesome, and his VA did a really, really good job voicing him. I still like a certain long-haired pretty-boy better, though. :P

I've noticed that no one every says "Warrior of Light" or "Onion Knight" out loud, except for the narrator. I wonder what their real names are. I mean, they gotta have real names. I really don't think they have "Warrior of Light" and "Onion Knight" on their birth certificates. That is, if they have birth certificates in their Medieval Europeanesque worlds.

I think of the Warrior of Light as a Lucien or Lucius, but that's so terribly unoriginal. I suppose he could be a Lucan or Lucanus. Same meaning, but not as common. Or, he could be named Luca, which has appeared in a couple Final Fantasy games already. Unfortunately, it doesn't mean "light", though it's similar to names that do. Hm...I almost wanna write a fanfic about him. Maybe a fluffy little one-shot of him returning from defeating Chaos in the past and being reunited with Princess Sarah. That'd be cute. :)

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Another Dissidia post [November 7th, 2009|10:18pm]
[ mood | relaxed ]
[ music | Dissidia music in my head ]

Played through the Warrior of Light's story. You have to fight a boss battle on every level. Joy. You go up against Garland, Sephiroth, Ultimecia, the Emperor, and then Garland again. The Warrior of Light draws opponents like flies, it seems. Maybe it's because he shines so much. They're like a swarm of moths, or something. _-_

I finally got to see Shantotto and Judge Gabranth in a cut scene. Too bad I can't unlock them as playable characters yet.

Terra's the only hero(ine) left for me to play. In fact, I might play through her story later tonight. Then it's off to Shade Impulse for me.

I know I'm taking an incredibly long time to play this game. I'm just having too much fun in Quick Battle and Arcade Modes. XD

One of the attacks you can learn as Cloud is Omnislash Version 5, the final attack he unleashed on Sephiroth in Advent Children. As he lands and catches his sword, he says, in a very deadpan and insincere-sounding voice, "No hard feelings." I LOLed. ILU, Cloud.

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Am I invisible, or just annoying? [November 5th, 2009|11:23am]
[ mood | lonely ]
[ music | Rain against the window ]

I've been feeling really pathetic lately. The only time I get out of the house is to go to work, no one ever calls or texts me just to talk, whenever I call or text somebody I hardly ever get any response, I still haven't gotten up the guts to tell the guy I'm crushing on that I like him (he doesn't seem interested anyway), no one responded to the meme I posted last week, my mom stopped just shy of calling me ungrateful the other day, and my dad keeps blowing me off when all I want to do is watch a movie together.

I don't want to talk about this with anyone, because whenever I try to voice my frustrations, whoever I'm talking to, friend or family, always makes it out to be my fault. They say I should get out and initiate things myself. I do. Or at least I try. And why should I always be the one to get things rolling? No one ever tries to initiate anything with me. Why can't I be on the receiving end at least once? It seems no one even thinks of talking to me unless I open my mouth first.

They say people who hurt themselves are crying out for attention. I'm starting to wonder if even that will accomplish anything. Probably not.

EDIT: Okay, I lied. I've been asked out a couple of times in the past. But it's always been from complete assholes who act like I should be grateful they're even talking to me, or it's complete losers who are desperate to touch anything with breasts. On one hand, I feel like I shouldn't have rejected any of them, as beggars can't be choosers. On the other hand, I still have some modicum of pride left in me. I'm not that desperate. Yet.

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What's that you're swinging around, Cloud? [November 4th, 2009|03:47pm]
[ mood | lazy ]
[ music | Roter Sand (Orchester Version) - Rammstein ]

Is it just me, or is the Ultima Weapon rather on the phallic side?

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Destructive little beast... [November 2nd, 2009|10:43pm]
[ mood | listless ]
[ music | Occasional night sounds ]

I haven't shared any YouTube vids for a little bit, so I thought I'd post one of my favorite series of animations. I know I've linked/embedded a couple of these before, but there's no harm in showcasing them again. They're so very hilarious (and cute!).

Everybody knows a cat like Simon's )

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YOU'VE BETRAYED ME, BRAIN [November 2nd, 2009|09:33am]
[ mood | disturbed ]
[ music | Traffic driving by outside ]

OH MY GOD. I HAD A TWATLIGHT DREAM. SOMEONE SHOOT ME NOW.

Although, to be fair, it was about how much Twatlight sucks. If I had liked it in this dream, I definitely would have killed myself upon waking. ~_~

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Daily German & French: October 26th - October 31st [November 1st, 2009|01:37pm]
[ mood | sleepy ]
[ music | Donaukinder (in my head) - Rammstein ]

Daily German )

Daily French )

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Forgotten English: October 26th - October 31st [November 1st, 2009|12:31pm]
[ mood | lethargic ]
[ music | The washer and dryer ]

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Found in [info]totallygay81's journal [October 31st, 2009|12:36pm]
[ mood | blah ]
[ music | Rammlied (in my head) - Rammstein ]

If you are reading this, whether we do or don't speak often, please post a comment of the first memory you have of me and you that pops in your head (good or bad). When you've finished, post this paragraph on your own journal; you'll be surprised what people remember about you.

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Voluntary stupidity makes me RAGE [October 27th, 2009|04:58pm]
[ mood | exasperated ]
[ music | Führe mich - Rammstein ]

Wow. Holocaust deniers are retarded. I ran into a few online a couple of days ago, and we got into an argument. They've now run out of things to say and are reduced to telling me I must be on drugs to believe the Holocaust happened. Basically, their argument has completely collapsed and they're now just throwing insults like preschoolers. They can't just shut up and save themselves a little dignity. Dipshits.

Oh, and my sister is pregnant again. The baby will probably be born late-May/early-June. She says this is the last baby she and her husband will be having.

I don't think my cats will be too pleased to have another little creature crawling around and playing with their toys. Which Elijah does every time he's brought over here (except now he's walking/running around). Man, if looks could kill, Elijah would drop dead from the scowl Rufus always gives him. XD

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Daily German & French: October 19th - October 24th [October 25th, 2009|02:46pm]
[ mood | restless ]
[ music | It Only Hurts When I Laugh! on TV ]

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